September 13, 2006
I just stumbled upon PostSecret. This is a blog where the author posts scanned postcards sent in with secrets written on them anonymously- the rules being that the barer of said secret has told no one before. Reading the blog was mood-altering; funny and also tearful in a good way. It’s so human and the impact of telling someone is so significant. That makes it good, as does the simplicity of the project.
Someone decided to create this site and continues to do so. That fact, and its consequences, give me hope. Is that strange? I can’t explain so well why this is so.
August 26, 2006
My compassionate psychiatrist was very practical, as I mentioned before. He was the first guy to take certain things at face value. One of these things was my reaction to “relaxation exercises.” That reaction was panic attacks.
It’d be fun to psychoanalyze that, wouldn’t it? But it’s a lot simpler. There’s not enough going on in a “relaxation exercise” to quiet my thoughts. ADD involves underactivity in the brain systems that allow us to choose what to focus on; the filter is off and the brakes don’t work. Thinking runs amok. In order to quiet the mind, we need to wake it up enough to slow things down- and choose what to focus on internally. “Quieting your mind” does the opposite, by providing less to wake up the mind and body, and more to think about without direction: “I’m thinking again! why am I thinking when I’m supposed to be relaxing? I can’t relax! What’s wrong with me? Just try to relax! Breathe, concentrate on bre…. what am I doing again?”
August 4, 2006
Joy is good. Joy is healthy. When the thinking gets too thoughtful and I’ve forgotten where I am, some things help get me back on track Here is one of those things, brought to you by the joyful folks at Cute Overload.